Wow, a lot has been happening with me. A couple of weeks ago I was just so dissatisfied. Tears were my constant companion. I was really longing for more of Jesus. I just wanted to be in heaven with Him. My friend was telling me today that in Heaven His face is like liquid crystal and it has sparks of color flying off of it. I want to see that!!!! I was longing also for Australia and the Tribe. I miss having a community that is corporately seeking supernatural realms and walking in the truth of Jesus' message. It's not happening here. Everyone seems so far behind in what God is doing. I have to be grateful for the little pockets of water holes. When I come to one I drink deeply and greedily.

I've been living with a family and on Sunday I said to God, I am longing for something different but I'm not going to look for it. If you want me to move out then I'm asking you bring the opportunity to me as confirmation. The next day I was spending time with friends and one of them mentioned they are looking for a housemate. I knew it was divine. This house is a couple of blocks from some of my best friends and it is more central to my lifestyle. Plus I would get to share a room with Katy who is someone I learn a lot from and connect really deeply with. It's not official in the physical but I feel a shift in my spirit and know this will most likely happen.

Also through a series of crazy confirmation I've began to dream about returning to Africa again. This is a major heart transition. Even two weeks ago I was saying "No thank you!" My dreams were to settle down in Tacoma and transform lives through teaching. I'm not totally sure what is up God's sleeve but as I began to pray "Lord, don't let the devil have any glory concerning my destiny. If I'm supposed to go to Africa, change my heart." That weekend I got two emails about missions and Africa. One was a dream my friend had of me. She went to hug me and I had lost all of my "Chineness". My eyes and skin were Anglo. She was incredibly grieved and saddened. As she prayed for an interpretation she felt God was saying "Don't forget your heart of missions... . perhaps Africa." So, I know that something is shifting and I'm praying about where I should go and for how long. Is it just a summer trip or a diving fully into this missions idea again? I'm not totally sure but I do know that God is going to vindicate all that happened this past year and it's going to be glorious, not half baked.

One place I've begun to see this redeemption is by getting to share what I've gotten from Austraila. Whether that be music, books, teaching, or the lessons I've learned. It's been so great to see people get provoked and encouraged from this. Yesterday my friend and I soaked to the Captured CD and she said, "Man, Meag it's like you prophetically know which Cd to play because I get so touched every time." But, I resurred her it's all good and it's all soaked with Holy Spirit. I was so spoiled in Australia to be surrounded by such rich resources and I've decided that I'm not going to be shy on spending my paycheck on these resources so others can have and eat this rich life packed food.